Still fumbling.

Hello all! Well, I admit that my updates have been a bit dull a lately. There just really isn't a whole lot to say. Moses is growing and as sweet as can be. He naps well, the nights are horrible, and we are exhausted. That may sound a bit dismal, but the attitude around here is rather chipper, actually. We're just figuring things out, and the days are filled with a lot if silly laughter because, for those of you who don't know, I am hilarious. Just ask Moses.
I posted awhile back about nursing school. I heard last week (or the week before??) that I did, in fact, get in. This is fabulous news. The only other time I got into nursing school was a few years ago and it would have cost around $60,000 to complete and I would have had to live on another island than my husband. Obviously that was a no-go. So the prospect of going to nursing school is very exciting. However, the prospect of leaving my sweet son in the care of someone else for 20 hours a week is not so exciting. And may be a deal breaker. I have this sweet boy and I am committed to raising him the best way I know how, and taking him to a daycare center just doesn't fit into my plans. If I could find someone to watch him for me (without breaking the bank) or find a small in home daycare that I felt comfortable with that may just change things.. but so far that hasn't panned out and I'm a bit at a loss.
But daycare isn't the real issue here. If nursing really is the way to go we will find a way to make it work. What the real issue is has more to do with what kind of mom I want to be and how I view these next years raising my child, and eventually, children. A friend sent me a link to a couple of interviews of Dr. Laura by Focus on the Family and they really struck a cord with me. These days of raising my children will pass so quickly, they are but a season, and I don't know if I want to spend two years of them being both a mom and a nursing student. A decision needs to be made and I am hoping that the Lord makes it clear which path to take!